As mentioned earlier, we may have noticed that forgiveness for others or for ourselves cannot be made to happen, even by our will or our mental decisions….otherwise, I say to myself, why am I still thinking about it, why am I mentioning it? If you have forgiven, it should already be swept away as so much detritus of life, swept away by the rivers of livingness.

I found I had been a bit hard on myself for neglecting my website and blog writing for so long, but the very state of being hard on myself – as in criticism or self-judgement – created low turbulence within me, within the personal house of my existence, the vehicle I reside in, that I try to look after as the temple of God. It is as if the doors of the house are locked and the blinds are drawn.

Even though it might be for a good reason one is hard on oneself, anything within us that is low turbulence or even more turbulence, nevertheless interferes with our accessibility to the divine forces, the transpersonal energies and consciousness that is always trying to actually get a hold of us and guide us on our way.

That see-saw between being hard on oneself for not doing what one “should”, and then actually doing it, is a bit of a catch – 22. So finally, that is the preamble to tomorrow’s blog, FORGIVENESS 3.2, what got me out of the slump.